I Forgive me, for giving you that much power.

Im Sorry you call me names i can't answer to anymore. I have finally realized that the only reason i answered was because when i met you, i was so insecure, so full of hurt and pain from my past. I wanted so bad for THIS to work. My dream has always been to be successful and in love. Somehow my dreams never included having my innocence stolen, my heart shattered , my trust torn apart, my self esteem crushed at such an early age. Even in all of what has happened i Still held on to my dream, i may have lost hope but i was still able to close my eyes at night even if it ment crying myself to sleep......I still dreamed. I may have lost hope, but i still dreamed.

Im sorry if i gave you the power to control my mind, the way i felt and thought about myself. Im sorry if i kept holding on to something that was doing anything but deplete me. No everyday wasnt this way because i learned that in Cycles there are highs and lows but the cycle remains the same. I dressed the way i thought was pleasing to you even if i hated it. I wore my hair the way you wanted it even if it made me uncomfortable on a hot summer day. I smiled when i wanted to cry. I became a miserable mean person with my guards all the way. I became angry and held unforgiveness in my heart. I became someone else. I didnt even know who this person was anymore. I had lost ME.

Can i blame you for it all NO! and i will never try. I take full responsibility for everything i allowed you to do to me. I had insecurities from the start and i entered into a relationship and gave you the right to play on those insecurities. We were both Broken i now realize, but im no longer in a place where i can allow your brokenness to cut me ever again.

So Dear INSECURITY I will no longer Answer to your name. Forgive me for Giving you that much power over me to let you control me, to let you make me settle for anything LESS than Who God has created me to be. I now Know who i am and i walk in Full power and Authority of my God given Name and Purpose on this earth. I am Shalonda, Beautiful, Highly Favored and Loved By God. I am an Author, I Inspire, i Motivate, i Transform lives with Transparency and with Truth!

Dear Insecurity I take back the power i gave you! Im Sorry, yes Sorry that i know you have tried to damage many Woman across the Nations With your lies. But i am Greatful To God that he Gave me my Makeover and he has Trusted me to Go to the Nations and Bring a message of Hope!

Unapologetcially

Shalonda Inspires