Dear Past

Dear Past,

Its Saturday morning about 4am i was awaken by my beautiful daughters footsteps as she hurried to the bathroom and i could not manage to get back to sleep. I scorlled through social media and i thought about you. Funny thing is, i often do. But it was something different about this time around, something amazing! I laugh because normally thinking about you would make tears well up in my eyes and i would began to revisit the pain that you baught me. But not tonight. So i decided to write you this letter once and for all, and must i remind you before i began that i wont be writing from a Hurt place as you may assume but from a Healed place!

Dear Past,

Today i Let you Go. Today i part ways with the pain that you bring by the memories that i reaplay in my mind over and over again. No, i will never Forget you, for you are the very reason i am able to Share my Testimony with the world and reach back and help pull out many Young girls and woman who i once was. Im able to talk to their Fears and tell them that fear will stunt your growth, let it go. I can tell them Pain will make you so numb that you begin to master it and become an expert at living with it daily but dont hold on to hit, seek healing from God. I will tell them that the Past does not define who they are or who they will become because With God He makes All things New. I will make sure to speak to their Future, and see them for who God sees them, but to be careful not to indentify them by their past.

Dear Past,

I carried you everywhere i went. I wore a face full of shame, and i started to believe that because of you i would never be who God had called me to be. I now laugh at the thought of even feeling like that. Dear Past, I have to thank you today, because of you i got tiered. The weight of carrying you had gotten too heavy. Every morning i would wake up and load you on my back until one day, i Fell. I had taken the last blow, i had been called the b word for the last time, I had been told i was nothing, I had been shoved for the last time. And you wanna know something funny about that day. I might have been knocked down, i might have taken the last blow, i might have even cried asking God why this again after ive tried all that i knew how. And that very day, when i got to the lowest of the low for the last time God spoke to me and said nothing that you have gone through was in vein. I let you stay in the fire until i knew you were ready to come out. He said but the beauty of it all, is that i was right there with you all the time. He said and Now, now your ready. Your ready to speak, Tell your testimony, Write your books, but most of all your ready to work for my Kingdom.

Dear Past,

thank you for the damage you tried to cause me, because of you I am Destined for Greatness. Dear past, i release you from my life and will only make mention of you when tell other woman about you so that they themselves can get free from the pains of their past....

For ever Greatful for this day, for this is the day i buried my past.

Shalonda Inspires