When your able to Feel again!

For so long i had become numb, unable to feel. I had been hurt so much in life, in Relationships that my heart had literally become numb. I remember when i truly realized my heart had become numb and i had become very good at holding in pain, pain actually had become Quite comfortable.

My Aunt was batteling Cancer and she was everybodies Favorite. She would help me through lifes most dificult times. I remember her calling for Every birthday, its funny because im one to change my cell phone number often and no matter how many times it was changed she would find a way to get my number and call me. She would even call on days where i needed her the most. She won her battle to cancer and went on to be with the lord Several years ago. I remember being called into the room by my uncle and said Quietly...Shalonda Check her pulse, i did and there was no pulse. My Aunt had peaceful went to sleep. That wouuld be the day i knew that i my heart was numb. I don't even remember crying but consoling my sister who had taken it the hardest. I was hurt that she had passed, i mean it tore the entire family apart! But what happens when nothing really affects you, We were naturally created by God to have emotions and to feel, to laugh as well as to cry.

I had grown numb. I was protecting my heart from anybody or anything hurting it again. I mean, i could give love, i could care for people but i couldnt receive ANYTHING. For years i lived like this, leading up until lastnight.

For weeks i had been praying to God, Please God let me feel again. God in my journey of really learning and discovering who i am, remove the pain, the layers and the walls that i had built around my heart and just let me feel again. Well lastnight, God answered my prayer in a way totally unexpected.

As i browsed fb i see a post by someone and thy had a picture of a person who had been locked up for robbery. There were several comments under the mug shot and i was overwelmed with emotion and compassion for our hurting Generation. I began to cry out to God for the lost. Ive never been a robber, but i have been in a place where i just didnt really care too much about life and i can only imagine how he felt at the time. Now does this make it right Not at all!!! But do we still serve the true and living God who can turn the lives around of anyone struggling with addictions, and their own demons that they fight with everyday Yes we do!

It wasnt until i woke up this morning and talking to God i said God, why did i have such a compassion for that person who was locked up and thinking about everyone who is struggling with some sort of hurt and pain? why God? He said because those are the people that i want you to reach back and help. I want you to reach back and help the broken hearted, the ones who feel like all hope is lost, the ones who feel like outcast but never Cast out because my Grace and mercy i give to them.

Today, i leave you with with this. God will restore! he will turn your Entire World around starting from the inside out!!!!!!!!! Today he wants you to Feel again, and if he did it for me he will surly do it for you!

I love you with the love of Christ

Shalonda Inspires